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2003-11-30T18:16:00.000-05:00

I got myself a new account at Tabulas! I better spread the news and change my link on theirs.. :)

I love Tabulas!! <-- click here!

2003-11-27T19:17:00.000-05:00

Hey guys! Sorry if I wasnt able to blog these days.. I get so stressed about school work especially with my Math class. I really want to concentrate with my studies so I'm thinking I'll take a long break from blogging. I'm planning to get a new account somewhere for blogging purposes since I don't feel like home with blogger anymore. I want to try new things, get hosted perharps, or get a domain. I am not sure. But i really need a break. I'll be back. I'm trying to work on my own template so it will be fun!

Thanks for the tags, guys! :)

2003-11-22T21:59:00.000-05:00

Sorry if I wasn’t able to blog the yesterday. I don’t know what to say at that time. Well, I got my midterm mark yesterday and I didn’t like it. And we should return this blue paper with parent’s signature and with parent’s comments or something like that. Seriously, I don’t like the idea of letting your parents make comments about how you do with regards to your studies. I got used to getting my report card every grading period. My parents are always busy so they can’t get my card themselves. I got used to it so when there was one time they want to they my card, I said no. I’m bitter, yeah I know, but I have my reasons.

My bf also texted me yesterday saying that he had a nightmare. He was with his friends and they were all getting married. But when he looked at his side, he saw this girl from his past. They never really had a relationship or something. (I think the girl likes him very much and keeps on calling him every night but he never answers them.) And the next thing he knew, he was on the rooftop planning to kill himself. He said that he was miserable after knowing that I was not the one he’s going to marry so he called that a nightmare! :)

So about today, I spent the morning cleaning the house, errrr I mean apartment. And we’ll have visitors tomorrow. Friends of my dad from work I think. He got a new job at GAP I think. I haven’t told you guys that he quit his job at the factory for a month now. He’s been trying to get a job ever since until he got a seasonal job at GAP. I wish I have a job too. I want to have a lot of money so I can go home earlier than what my friends expected. And I can surprise my boyfriend for that! Yeah, in my dreams! So, I better get going now, I’m planning to stop by the library tomorrow. I hope you guys are having a great weekend! And thanks for the comments guys!

2003-11-20T22:56:00.000-05:00

Hi guys! I am so exhausted today because of the volleyball training. My teacher said that my transfer was accepted so I can play for the team now. I just don’t know when and where our first competition is. Oh well, I was supposed to meet someone today but I cancelled it because I’m not feeling well. Unfortunately, I was seen by another team mate so I have to play at the gym. I feel so bad afterwards so I called him up when I got home.

I love being alone most of the time. I rarely get that since we live in an apartment and all 5 of us are getting sick of seeing each other. It’s nice to go for a walk on your own for a change. It gives me freedom and peace of mind. I knew I was missing a lot of those while I was walking on my way home. I wish I can do that more often.

Well, while I was walking to the same road everyday. I noticed that the trailers we’ve seen the other seen the other day were still there. I think they are shooting a part of a movie or a sitcom or I don’t know. I’m not sure. My brother and I were always talking about the trailers everytime we get pass by. We don’t know who those person are but were just excited since it was our first time seeing those things here! We really find it fascinating! Sounds too shallow huh?! Anyway, I better get going, I have another test for English (again!) tomorrow. And this time, it’s about Othello.

By the way, thanks for the comments guys! :)

2003-11-19T20:31:00.000-05:00

I’m supposed to go to Shoppers Drug Mart after class to look for kikay girly stuff. It’s really rare for me to be hunting for great stuffs. I guess I'm such a late-bloomer or something that’s why I have no idea how to use make-up. I never liked using make-up! It makes me get itchy and uncomfortable. Anyway, I ended up buying junk food from a Filipino store and then I went to the Post Office since my brother has to drop a money order or something when I came across to this polar bear stuffed toy. I really love polar bears so I bought it. I got it for $10+taxes. I think I’ll start getting serious about collecting these stuffed polar bears!

I’m also thinking that I should get another web log account somewhere. I'm thinking of leaving Blogger since I hate it now. Do you guys know where I can get a nice and great web log?!

I don't know where the hell I get so many bruises. I clearly have no idea!

2003-11-18T18:13:00.000-05:00

This is my second blog entry for the day. I changed the commenting service to Haloscan now. So that means, all your comments before, are gone. I just hope you guys will continue to comment on my boring blog! ;)

And also, I’m getting so irritated about Blogger. After publishing my blog, everything will be gone. I don’t know how and why this happen; they just emailed me about this certain bug that rarely gets into your account and then mess up with your whole blog space. But this is my fourth time to experience this, I emailed them again and they didn’t reply. I wonder what’s going on?! I really need to transfer my blog. I’m not sure about being hosted now since I’m so lazy doing my own layout and everything. I don’t even know how to build one! This computer doesn’t have Photoshop unlike some of the computer we’ve used in this household!

2003-11-18T09:41:00.000-05:00

Ok, I’m in my first period class. I don’t like doing any animation today because I’m running out of ideas. So, I still haven’t talked with my beau. I was waiting for him to call last night and I even tried calling him again but all I get is a busy tone. I also tried calling their landline phone but I always hang up after one ring! Bad huh? Its because I’m not really sure if he’s awake already or just like before that he doesn’t want to be bothered when he’s asleep. I just sent him an SMS message saying that he can’t call now since it’s really late and I’m not feeling good to talk to him. Bitter huh? Then this morning, there were lots of missed calls from a number of people. One of them is my beau, since I don’t want to be bothered; I turned off my cellphone! It’s still early! Then I got a message on my ICQ from him, asking that if I want to talk to him, I just have to text him. I told him not to, since I’m preparing my stuff for school. He didn’t text me back.

Honestly, I don’t know the people calling my cell today. There are 2 other people who keep calling but I don’t answer it. (1) They hung up on me after I answered it. (2) I have prepaid service and in this country, when I have a phone call, they deduct 30 cents per minute on my credits. (3) I think it’s just a waste of time since I don’t know them. I don’t even give my cell number to anyone!

I better get this animation work done. I have a deadline! I’m thinking about changing my commenting service to Haloscan. I think Enetation is so slow! What do you think guys?

Oooh! Before I forgt, I want to thank all the people who leave their comments here in my boring web log! hihihihi! I really appreciate it! Mwahhh!! Take care guys!

2003-11-15T23:44:00.000-05:00

Hey guys! So now, I have mixed feelings for today. It’s supposed to be a great day since Nas and I are on 14th month! But, he told me he can’t call since he doesn’t have his allowance yet so that’s fine with me. I just told him to ring my cellphone when he wants me to call. My beau did the miss call thingy and when I tried contacting him, its either I get busy tones or the phone will ring but no one answers it. I got tired of it and texted him afterwards that I’m not calling him anymore. He just texted that the phone might be broke or something so I better as well get some rest.. but im still here, talking to someone.. getting him to smile since he’s so depressed, problematic, whatever the right term is.. I just hope he’s not going to read this! (hi! :) )

That’s it for now.. there’s nothing more to talk about anyway.. hope you guys are having a great weekend!

2003-11-14T12:23:00.000-05:00

Guess what? I’m in our school library! This is the place where my brother and I hang out after eating our lunch. We both love reading – he loves to read about history and geography while I'm more into the fiction books. I guess it would be fun to write here using this Microsoft Word and not do it directly at Blogger. Besides, computers here are for educational use and I don’t think Blogger is educational!

Anyway, I'm still sleepy. I went to bed at 1 in the morning because of my obsession for the computer! It’s really tiring. Having to get up early in the morning. Running late in my class. But I was not that late though. It’s just that I'm lazy to go to school especially in my Math class. I think I’ll fail that class. I want to talk to my teacher about it but I cant. He told us from the first day about student’s issues and I think, once I’ll have the chance to talk to him about my grades, he’ll think about it as a student issue and make it like I’ve done a horrible crime or something. I really want to get good marks for my university applications but this Math class really annoys me. I loved Math when I was in elementary but as years go by, teachers so cruel and mean, I didn’t feel like doing my obligations as a student for this Math class. And now, I'm having second thoughts about taking Calculus next term. It will be good on my transcript taking Calculus Math but then, if I really don’t feel good about it, maybe I can just trash my idea and take another course instead. This Math thing really makes my day so bad.

Enough of my drama for the morning! I’ll try to put a smile on my face now. Oh no, I forgot about my beau. I think he’s being cold at me these days. I told him about something last night and he said this things that made me wonder if he really wants to just have friends that I already have and not have friends here! It’s pretty confusing and weird but he can’t accept the fact that making new friend and with a guy that he doesn’t know, I think he doesn’t trust me!

2003-11-13T20:07:00.000-05:00

This day is crap! I think I'll not pass my Math class, I am so tired because of my volleyball practise, its so cold outside. Winter is here.. Snowflakes everywhere and this will be my first winter! I dont know what to say now.. I dont know how I'll put the words to show how I really feel now. Good thing, I have someone to talk to! :) You know who you are! Thanks a lot! :)

2003-11-12T05:59:00.000-05:00

Its 6am! i have to get up early because I have to be in school by 7.30.. I accepted my classmate's offer of trying out for the volleyball team. So with that, I have to get early every Wednesdays.. And Im still sleepy!

Yesterday, we had a surprise test in English! My teacher was absent the day before and because she knew that her students were lazy that day, she gave us the quiz.. Many of my classmates have blank papers when they passed it, while I, erm... I answered some of them.. Its just that she gave us an assignment while she was away, and as usual, I didnt do it.. consequences.. In my physed class, when I signed up for the try-outs, I was required to do these paper things because Im a new student at school. I forgot what's that for but I was able to fill those up and have them signed by my mother. I hope I can watch The OC later.. I didnt get to watch it last Monday because Im so busy with another work and besides my mom is watching this old film, Overboard. The film is kinda funny..

take care people!

2003-11-10T10:12:00.000-05:00

Hey guys! Im in my first period class and any minute now the bell will ring so I better get this done.. So, dont ask me what happened to my last English project assignment.. I'll just tell you what happened earlier.. We went to this assembly for Remembrance Day, I think its this occassion where they remember those people who fought during the war.. The people who are there acting or something are really funny but I do know know that they do have good intentions.. It's just that students here doesnt really appreciate it. Oh well, its almost time, I gonna run for my second period which is, ENGLISH!

take care people!

2003-11-09T19:26:00.000-05:00

Its about 7.30pm and still, I havent started doing my last English project assignment.. the play review and play bill.. I dont have any good ideas on what to put there.. But I hope I'll get some thoughts running in my head or else I'll be cramming again till the wee hours of the morning.. And I do want to get some sleep for tomorrow since its a new week! Wish me luck! :)

Ive been blog hopping for some time now, so you'll notice that I added more links.. I'm also wishing that someday, I'll get hosted and change this ugly layout! If I only got the time and patience.. *wink*

2003-11-08T20:47:00.000-05:00

I went to the library today with my brother. Im trying to find a book needed for my second book conference in the next 2 weeks. But sadly, I cant find neither one of the books my teacher suggested to read.. They were A Bend In the River by V.S. Naipaul or Things Fall Apart written by Chinua Achebe. Instead, I borrowed another 3 books making 7 books I have to read. I have the Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy, About A Boy - Nick Hornby, Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen, Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden, Im Telling - Karen Miller, To the Lighthouse - Virginia Woolf and Half A Life - V.S. Naipaul. The last book mentioned I borrowed because I thought I can ask my teacher to read that instead since it has the same author. I finished reading Im telling by Karen Miller. I was reading it for 3 hours I think.. And Im in About A Boy.. Im loving this books! And now I wish I can have them all instead of just borrowing them from the library. :( ButI dont have the money to buy them.

Christmas is fast approaching and I still havent thought of a great gift for my beloved beau.. :) I thought of giving him the Matrix Reloaded DVD since he really liked the Matrix trilogy but he doesnt have a DVD player. :( So, I have to think of another gift idea.. Have any good gift suggestions on what I should get him this Christmas? :)

Another thing.. I was blog hopping this morning so I linked great people! :) Feel free to visit them! Thanks to garet and amanda for there comments! I really appreciate it guys! :) And also, I got my Pics and Face-pic posted just below the ME section on the right corner.. :)

2003-11-07T18:18:00.000-05:00

Friday, at last! This week has been so stressful for me! I really deserve something.. Oh well, i take it back! Ive been so lazy this week! Cramming on my powerpoint presentation but it paid off when my teacher praised me and even told that I did an excellent job with my presentation. We were really ask to do something from the paper she handed us and just select topic from there but then, when my partner and I decided to work individually, I keep doing research about that 9/11 so that I dont have the same topic as theirs.. Same with my book conference after school.. that was really the last day to have the conference about the post-colonialism books or something like that and I got a perfect mark! Isnt that great?! She asked me questions and told her that I cant put the words I want to say since Im not that good in English speaking.. I really prefer writing.. :) She understand that and said that I should be getting used to it.. Well, Im trying! Its just that I really get nervous when I know someone is going to ask me questions or something.. and because Im too shy too speak! She gave me perfect marks since I used the handout she gave us for doing our own notes while reading the book.. the plot, quotes, symbols, motifs and everything.. She also talked to me about the quiz I took the other day.. I know what I've done wrong about the first part.. She said that time that we can do point forms so I did the point forms but point my answers in phrases and not did it in sentences! something like that.. I should do better next time.. Im beginning to like English! :)

And while Im beginning to like English, I dont like Math now.. I got my first mark update the other day and I got 65! I dont like it! I think its about C.. gawd! I know I can do better but I AM SO LAZY!!! I hate myself for that! grrr!!! And I also got the test score for the test we took last Wednesday and that sucked too!! I got more than half of the score. There's this question in the test that I have written notes about it in my notebook and I did not get it! I know Im getting stupid and there are 4 tests left before the semester ends.. I really need to study hard! I SHOULD! I MUST!

But since its weekend and Ive done so many things in the last few days, I need to relax for a bit.. Maybe read a book or something.. I got 5 books from the library, got them last week and Ive only read 2.. I'll go to the library tomorrow with my young brother since he wants to read some books too.. And also this weekend, I have to work with the Play Review and Play Bill for the play we saw weeks ago, Blue Orange..

Have a great weekend everyone! Take care!

2003-11-05T08:53:00.000-05:00

What a foggy morning! There's nothing much to blab to this morning. Just want to blog before classes start. I AM SO LAZY! I hate myself for being such a one.. *evil*

2003-11-04T19:59:00.000-05:00

Today ermmm... I dunno.. I did the make-up test in English after class thats why I am 30+ minutes late for my scheduled homework buddies volunteer activity. And this morning, they had this assembly awarding those students who got the highest marks last academic year, and for me, IT WAS SO BORING! :) Or maybe the reason I find it so boring is because students there were not paying attention either. Most of their are just talking and making loud noises.

I have to study for my Math test tomorrow! I guess that's it for now. take care everyone! :)

last cigarette: I dont smoke
last kiss: May 03, 2003
last good cry: a month ago, I think.
last website visited: Friendster
last movie seen: Finding Nemo last June (movie theatre), Matrix Reloaded on DVD (home)
last book read: Shopaholic Ties The Knot
last cuss word uttered: sh*t!
last drink: water
last food consumed: rice and pork chop
last crush: my blockmate at Mapua
last phone call: Nas
last tv show watched: Spongebob Squarepants
last time showered: this morning..
last shoes worn: my Nike rubber shoes
last song heard: Stellar - Incubus
last item bought: Doritos
last downloaded: blogger's template
last annoyance: my partner in English
last thing written: my make up test in English
last sleep: 8 hours ago
last chatted with: seriousman from Girltalk (Mark)
last sexual fantasy: *blushes*
last weird encounter: this afternoon when this classmate of mine in English keeps staring at me!
last ice cream eaten: i tasted my younger brother's favorite Mint Chip flavored ice cream and i didnt like it at all!
last time amused: watching The OC last night.. :)
last time wanting to die: * roll eyes*
last time in love: I still am!
last time hugged: May 03, 2003
last poster looked at: --
last concert/show attended: Justified and Stripped tour last August

2003-11-03T22:06:00.000-05:00

So Im stuck with this template for now.. I emailed Blogger this afternoon asking them whats wrong.. And it so happened that they have a bug that RARELY gets to others templates.. But so sad, that the bug chose me so here I am, I'll try to edit with what I have.. I really should start working on my template.. Its just that Im so filled with the requirements and everything and when I do find the time, I fell lazy to do it so nothing happens..

Anyway, were having this volleyball for 2 days now in my Physed class and one of the varsity players there ask me that i should try out for the team! Isnt that exciting?! Im thinking about it and maybe I should give it a shot! :) I never thought that in this place my skills in volleyball are good unlike when I was still in Philippines, I really messed up things in the court! I love sports! :)

With all the fuzz that happened today, what really made this day a great one is watching The OC! Im so into this show, didnt I told you guys that before?! I just love the ending where Marissa and Ryan were at the ferris wheel and Ryan has fear of heights but still he wanted to talk about Marissa so he blurted out his feelings and with that, Marissa kissed him and he kissed him back! :) I wish Im with Nas now.. I miss him so much! :(

Ok everyone, I still have lots of things to do.. Take care everyone! :)

2003-11-03T08:00:00.000-05:00

*dropping by* I just want to let you guys know, Im still cramming with this stupid research project! Its almost 8 and i have classes at 9! My partner in crime and I decided to work on our own since she mainly wants me to do all the work and im not doing that! *evil* gawd! i never should have raised my hand when my teacher ask if we want to discuss about 9/11.. I never thought WE are the ones who'll discuss it and not her! I am not making any sense, am I?! darn it! *sigh*

2003-11-01T19:11:00.000-05:00

what a day! im so tired.. havent started doing any of the things i should be doing.. my brother will also use this computer all night.. gawd! i should get started! by the way, i dont want to see any apples for the next.. ummm, a week or so! got to tell you the story later.. my damn mother is here! hate her!

2003-10-31T23:16:00.000-05:00

this will be a tiring weekend.. so many things to be done.. i dunno where to start.. maybe i'll just post here the things and requirements i have to pass next week..

Monday:

--> research project: truth, lies and 9/11 report (A day in the life of the President: Bush and 9/11); Powerpoint presentation
--> make-up test (English)

Tuesday:

--> book conference for Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad (Lunchtime)
--> homework buddies volunteer work - after class

Wednesday:

--> Chapter 4 Test - Data Management

Friday:

--> movie review and play bill of Blue Orange

isnt this great?! i posted this so i can remember the stuffs i have to do.. i have to go now.. i have to sleep early coz its apple picking tomorrow.. wish me luck people! take care! happy halloween everyone! enjoy your weekend!! :)

2003-10-29T19:51:00.000-05:00

i absolutely love the play!! i thought it would be so boring that i may sleep while its going, but i really enjoyed myself there! and as you know, i didnt got lost! i was with my two classmates, one Pakistani and one Vietnamese.. the place was in downtown and its my first time to go there.. i mean like explore and walk around.. the only place ive gone to downtown the last time was around CN Tower when we went to the Univesity fair and thats it.. i just love the scenery.. i saw the Hockey Fall of Fame and then there were some people doing shootings at the street! it was good seeing those things in this city! im beginning to enjoy Toronto! too bad i forgot to bring my camera phone or even my dad's camera.. there are so many things to be seen in this great city! for a moment, i thought of Makati with the tall buildings and people walking in the streets..

my classmates and i decided to eat at a Chinese restaurant near the theatre.. my Pakistani classmate is on fasting so she decided to check some shops and look for calling cards while my other classmate and i ate and talked about school and stuff.. that classmate of mine has a son, i think he's two years old, and my classmate is 20.. she and her boyfriend are living together.. thats pretty young, isnt it?! oh well, thats life.. after we ate, we asked for our bill and fortune cookies!! i love reading fortune cookies and i love eating the cookie afterwards! i wish i'll get to learn how to make them!

when we went to the theatre, the tickets were given to us and later the people there let us in and find our seats around.. the theatre was small but thats fine.. i think its an old building built late 1800s to mid 1900s.. the play was hilarious and smart! i love the ending! like, everyone's mad and shouting at each other, debating and like theres this mental tug-of-war.. whew! I LOVE IT!

going home was pretty tiring.. walking again to the subway station and its rush hour! there are no buses so most of the people are walking.. people are always in a rush and the station is so crowded! but i got home safe and sound.. geez, my blog entries are getting long now.. sorry if my english is not good.. i got to go now.. have to do some things for school.. take care people!

2003-10-28T20:10:00.000-05:00

so! im pretty exhausted today.. im finished with the animation i was working on in my first period.. then, in my english class, i am SO RELIEVED that the conferences for the book i was reading was moved.. so my new schedule for the conference will be on monday at lunch! and i am going to retake one quiz she gave us last friday this coming thursday.. i dont like the mark i saw in my paper so its better that i write it again and hope i can get good marks next time.. at lunchtime, after eating my food, my brother and i went to the library for some reading time.. and you know what?! its really impossible to have a good, quiet time in that library because people there just cant stop talking, sitting on the desks that were supposed to be for other purposes.. these people lack discipline, really! they dont have respect for their teachers and staff people at school! oh well, what can i do? these people dont even know how to listen..

we had swimming again today for my physed class.. it was fun, but it was pretty tiring doing exercises and other stuff in the pool.. later in my math class, our teacher gave us our marks about the test taken last week.. i was so pissed about myself because i missed 2 marks! i can have them all perfect but then i misunderstood one question in that quiz! i am so close! maybe i get it in the next quiz.. i hope so..

after class, we went to do our volunteering activity as homework buddies.. i get to meet the kid i will be working with for the next few weeks.. his name is Abdulaah (or i guess thats how it is spelled).. he is from Iraq.. he's been in canada for two years now and hes on grade 5.. i forgot to bring him early treats for the halloween so maybe i'll just give him his treats next week.. reminder: i have my field trip for the play in English tomorrow.. i just hope i wont get lost or else.. :)

2003-10-27T22:45:00.000-05:00

hey guys! i still havent done my work for my independent study.. see how lazy i am these days! damn me! how am i going to finish this darn thing now?! so stupid of me not bothering to do this weeks ago!! oh well, what can i do?! its there anyway! *sighs*

oh, what the heck! at least i got to watch two episodes of the oc today.. yihee!! the first one was that episode when marissa founds out about the divorce, going to tijuana, saw luke with this girl.. had several drinks, took summer's sleeping pills and was found by the trio at an almost dark alley.. then, the next hour, it was the new episode! when marissa's mother wants to take her to san diego and go to this recovery institution, her father not wanting to but his wife sued him for some sole custody.. then ryan, (oh! he's really hot!! i mean like really really really hot!!! ) rescues her.. visiting her and then took her out of the hospital.. she visited her father and wants to stay with him.. ryan talks to marissa's mother trying to say that marissa doesnt want to go with her.. and oh! ryan is trying to get to this school.. and in the end, he was accepted! this is gonna be so exciting! i cant wait for the next episode! I LOVE THIS SHOW!!! :)

2003-10-26T11:40:00.000-05:00

sorry guys if i wasnt able to blog the last few days.. so, i was able to watch marathons of the OC yesterday! they also have re-runs today! ha! benjamin mckenzie is so cute!!! anyway, ummm, im starting to read the book for my independent study in english..

Nas and I are having a great time texting each other.. making jokes and talking about anything! he wants to see this movie with heart evangelista in it and says that he really wants to see this movie with me.. he knows im a sucker for romantic movies! God! i really miss him..

2003-10-22T09:53:00.000-04:00

i really dont want to attend school this afternoon, but i have to.. i still havent read the book for my independent study in english.. we'll have our book conferences this coming monday.. and we also have this field trip to see a play called, blue orange on the 29th.. guess i have to prepare myself for school now.. i'll talk to you guys later!

2003-10-21T09:07:00.000-04:00

hey guys! im at my first period class! my classmates sre having these mock literacy tests for tomorrow.. and i dont need to write it because im 18 or something like that.. i really dont know why.. but im glad i wont take it anyway..

i talked to Nas this morning.. it lasted for an hour and i will be paying for that.. darn! Nas doesnt want me to call their home phone and prefers to talk to me using his cellphone.. his Tita might catch him and later scold him for staying in the phone for too long.. i really really miss him.. i want to go home.. :(

entry 2: i forgot to tell you guys that we have short day today.. class dismissed at 2.15 but my brother and i volunteered as homework buddies for junior students in the public school.. students are required to complete 40 hours of community service before receiving their highschool diploma.. we do the volunteer stuff for an hour until christmas every tuesdays..

i wanted to call Nas again today but i guess he is preparing for school since his class starts at 9, has vacants every hour and a half and goes home at 7.30.. he asked me to do this poem stuff for his humanities class, but u didnt do it.. im feeling lazy.. and i dunno anything about poetry..

2003-10-19T20:42:00.000-04:00

hey guys! guess what?! my boyfriend and i are okei now.. im really thankful that we are fine now.. i cant help but cry the minute he texted me this morning! i overreacted again because he doesnt have credits in his phone thats why he cant call or text me.. his allowance hasnt arrive yet so he said that when the minute he got his allowance, he'll call me..

its school day again tomorrow! i have my swimming class again.. darn! i dont want to go swimming.. i know the water will be so cold at that time.. i dont think its a good idea.. and tuesday is dress down day! and what am i going to wear?! with the weather so cold?! gawd!

thats all for now.. im getting addicted to this friendster thingy.. :)

2003-10-17T06:49:00.000-04:00

nothing happened.. i tried calling him in his cellphone last night, hes not answering it.. i tried calling him in their home phone, someone said i had the wrong number.. should i really give up now? if only i could talk to him for the last time and tell him i am so sorry.. i guess this is not really meant to be.. i dont feel like giving up.. but i think he is now..

anyway, i already have my new layout.. from soulkarma.. i absolutely love their layouts!! i just have to edit it and put it all here..

i'll talk to you guys later..

2003-10-16T06:42:00.000-04:00

entry 1: so i think thats it.. i havent heard from him the whole day.. and i know he's not like that.. i know its my fault.. ive been so arrogant, selfish, insensitive, and insecure.. paranoid and so crazy! and now, i dunno what to do.. i thought about it and i know i couldnt just let him go because i love him.. sounds crap but I LOVE HIM!! i told him that i am so sorry for acting like a kid.. ive been trying to get his attention for him just to text me or something, but nothing happened.. im so scared of calling him because i dunno what hes going to do.. he might hung up on me.. let someone answer the phone and tell me, he's busy.. let another girl answer the phone.. i dunno!!

i talked to Laureen from girltalk last night.. we really do have a lot in common.. she told me to give Nas time and all sort of things.. we are both in a long distance relationship.. Lei, thanks for your advices in my tag board.. i really appreciate it!

theres this chorus of a song that keeps singing in my head..

I thought she knew my world revolved around her
My love light burned for her alone
But she couldn't see the flame
Only myself to blame
I should have known
I should have known.. "I Thought She Knew" - Nsync

and replace the she/her with he/him..

i am so alone now.. i think im not gonna make it..

entry 2: 9:00am im at my first period class now.. the bell rang already.. im not in the mood to do the things that we are asked to do.. besides, i thought we'll be staying at the library.. anyway, i read the past emails Nas sent me.. i texted him so many times this morning.. no reply.. i texted one of our blockmates and said Nas is not with him.. i guess i really have to call him later.. i cant stand the silence..

2003-10-15T05:30:00.000-04:00

another MAD morning!! woke up at 4.30am just to talk to Nas today.. he didnt show up! i dunno whats his reason.. all i know is that i got a message in my ICQ saying that he cant come.. and what am I doing here?! just wasting my freaking time!! i wish we can talk things out in a nice orderly way.. and its so damn hard when the only communication you have are SMS, once in a blue moon emails, and now he just started to like the chat thing when he has vacant time.. and we'll be turning 13 months tomorrow.. (date is 16.. Philippine time)

what have i done to deserve this?! my life is a mess!!

2003-10-14T06:45:00.000-04:00

this is strange.. im beginning to wake up early these days.. trying to blog and write whats in my f*cking mind early in the morning.. oopps.. sorry for that! i dunno what to think.. i dunno what i want.. i dunno what i should do.. i dunnno what my problem is.. and the worst part is, I DUNNO IF IM STILL ME!! cant stop thinking what Nas said the other day while we chatted.. (i just hope HE IS NOT reading this now..) i dunno what to think.. i dunno if i have to let him go.. and just to be happy for him.. feels like he's beginning to talk weird things.. i think he cant hold on to this relationship anymore.. hey! what am i doing talking about this personal things with you guys?! oh, what the heck! i dont have anyone to talk to anyway..

about the layout thingy, i dont think i can do it myself with whats happening in my life right now.. (yeah, Nas is a BIG THING in my life thats why i feel so crushed and hurt) i might download another layout from sites if i find one thats interesting and dark! i guess, my layout will have to wait..

2003-10-13T08:15:00.000-04:00

just woke up.. pissed.. about last night.. all the excitement about the chat thingy was gone.. Nas has to do his homework so he didnt stay long.. ask me if its okei for me to wake up 4.30 in the morning to chat with him.. i told him NO! i dunno if im over reacting again or what..

this is gonna be a long day for me..

2003-10-12T17:12:00.000-04:00

hi guys! i just got home from the mall today.. im trying to find new contact lenses.. i lost mine last monday after i went for a swim in my physed class, and forgot that im wearing my contacts.. and now, i have to wait for at least 2 weeks to get an appointment before i get people examine my eyes and prescribe me contact lenses.. darn! i have to wear this glasses for a long time at school! it feels like im a nerd sometimes.. LOL!

anyway, im so excited today!! Nas and I will meet at a chatroom! i'll get to talk to him again! but sadly, i wasnt able to buy him a nice card.. we'll be turning 13 months this thursday! isnt that nice?! take care people! talk to you later!

ciao!

2003-10-11T19:16:00.000-04:00

God! dunno where i'll start.. ive been staring in the computer for several minutes thinking what i'll be putting in my site.. pictures.. images.. other things.. this is driving me crazy! Nas and i are fine now.. we did the chat thing the other day.. and he signed my guestbook!! finally!! hi hon, i love you! *smiles* i miss my beau, terribly!!

i dont want to talk about my parents today.. but what i can say is, its getting worst! i cried this afternoon when they said this awful things that made me remember how i hated my childhood days.. grrr!!! (relax aj.. relax..)

anyway, back to what im saying a while ago, i really dont know what to put on the layout ive been planning.. any suggestions? i dunno where to get images and stuff.. like pictures of nature or something.. im pretty lazy especially with the long thanksgiving weekend..

take care everyone! ciao!

2003-10-08T06:40:00.000-04:00

im not in the mood to talk about things.. this week is making me mad.. makes me want to cut myself.. reasons..

--> my mom
--> school
--> i dunno where the hell my boyfriend is!

this week is driving me mad.. *evil*

2003-10-06T17:15:00.000-04:00

Preppy

You've got that shy, shiny, and sweet, All-American thing working for you. That's why we think Mandy Moore might be your style match. When it comes to hair and wardrobe, your philosophy is probably easy: Keep it neat and simple. That way people notice the true you. Belly-baring tops and clashing colors? No way. Fresh faced and fun: That's definitely how to deal.

Your girl-next-door image probably has to do with more than just your clothing choices. You are likely to be a real people person who enjoys making others happy. Who needs to make a statement with caked on makeup or loud outfits? They'd just cover up the true you — and you have too many great things to show the world. So keep it going with your cool colors, clean lines, and good looks! Hollywood can use more fresh faces like you!

2003-10-05T12:31:00.000-04:00

i still have lots of things to do.. well, i havent even started doing anything.. im pretty lazy this weekend.. i want to change my layout but i dont know how.. ive been browsing some layouts in the net, and im thinking of doing my layout on my own.. well, i got to go now.. its lunch time! i'll talk to you guys later..

anyone you knows about doing layouts and stuff.. HELP me out please!! thanks!

2003-10-03T20:47:00.000-04:00

i am SO GLAD its friday!! but still, i have lots of things to do this weekend.. i have to study for my math quiz on monday.. i still have to work on my independent study in english (have to read a book which i dont find interesting..) and also another independent study for my math class.. the swimming session in my physed class was cancelled.. my teacher changed her mind and im SO relieved because i forgot to bring stuff for my eyes since im using contact lenses and i know its not recommended to use it underwater.. so we just played dodge ball with the guys from the other gym.. damn! my legs hurt!! everyday, we're jogging around the gym, doing crunches, push-ups, jumping jacks, etc. for 5-10 minutes and its really tiring!! im getting dizzy.. guess i have to go now.. or maybe drop by to Girltalk before i go to bed..

have a nice weekend everyone! take care ya'll..

Modern

Sometimes less really is more. A modern style like yours tends to be refreshingly clutter-free and all about simple lines. Maybe you use square, pop-up baskets to hide laundry or have straightforward twill bedding in a monochromatic hue. Simplicity is for you.

While you may get overwhelmed when everyday clutter starts accumulating on flat surfaces (don't we all?), you're also probably pretty organized. Which may be why the people who know you like to congregate in your spare, calm surroundings. Maybe you set the tone with a steel desk lamp and keep disarray at bay with great-looking storage boxes. We're guessing you pretty much have a place for everything and that translates into a room that perfectly reflects your clean, modern style.

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Miss Personality

Not that it's surprising with your sunny disposition and genuine down-home heart. You've learned that you catch more flies with honey, and simply put, you're just a pleasant person to be around.

Sure, the eveningwear competition might have been more fun than any dress-up game from your childhood days. But when it comes right down to it, that piece of fabric didn't get you to the winner's circle. It was the glimpse the judges got of your personality while you were strutting your stuff in that glamorous gown that made them notice you. So what are you going to do now that you've made it big? How about if you keep inspiring those around to be the best they can be?

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2003-10-01T18:07:00.000-04:00

hey people! school's fine.. I was praised by my commtech teacher this morning about the "news report" we were ask to do for the literacy test for grade 10s.. But I'm not in grade 10 but I did it anyway.. She said I did an outstanding job!! And she even read it to the class.. After that, I have a quiz in English about poetry and I haven't studied!! I called Nas last night so after I hung up, I went straight to bed and didn't bother looking at my notes before going my class!! But I think I did well in that quiz..

after lunch, my brother and I spent the rest of our free time in the library.. After that, I got my stuff for my physed class and get changed.. We were playing and shooting some hoops in gym while waiting for our teacher.. Then, we went outside with our sweatshirts and jackets because it was pretty windy outside and played with the frisbees.. After my physed class, I got to math period and got my results from the last quiz.. It was pretty disappointing, but I know I can do better so I'll be studying about statistics this weekend.. I have another quiz this Monday so I really have to catch up with my grades.. That's all for now.. Ciao!

xcez: I remember its October 1st! wOw.. Christmas is near.. I remember the people in Philippines setting up Christmas lights.. Many are playing Christmas songs.. Early Christmas shopping.. This will be my first Christmas out of the country.. *sad* I'll miss the fireworks in New Year.. children/adult/"charity groups" singing Christmas carols.. The exchange gifts! More window shopping for my beau and I..

Righteous Rose
Ever notice that little thorn in your side? Wouldn't surprise us one bit with the way you feel about issues near and dear to your heart. But just because you're dedicated to your causes -- from treating friends fairly to helping out those in need -- doesn't mean you're reckless. In fact, far from it. That's part of your charm.

You're the type willing to help shape change, whether it be writing your Congressman or simply asking the local video store clerk why they don't shelve a better selection of new releases. If something nabs your attention -- be it an unfair grade or a hot new shade of lipstick -- you're probably not too shy to stand up and let your opinion be known. After all, nobody ever got anywhere by sitting on their hands and staying quiet.

In short? With your rose shade of passion, you've got "leader" written all over you. You know how to guide a team to victory with a dose of diplomacy thrown in for good measure. So keep it up with your righteous self!

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Hopeless Romantic
For richer? For poorer? It doesn't matter to you because you're the Hopeless Romantic. Whether your sweetie is an oil baron or a grease monkey, it's all about until death do us part.

Even if you haven't met "the one," you'll judge your soul mate by the love letters, roses, and foot massages --- not the size of their bankroll. And even if their wallet is as fat as their sonnet collection, the toughest part of your relationship will be arguing over which charity to choose, who loves whom more, and who's the bigger Schmoopie. And if that diamond ring turns brass, no biggie your love is totally not-for-profit.

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Brown
You're brown, a credible, stable color that's reminiscent of fine wood, rich leather, and wistful melancholy. Most likely, you're a logical, practical person ruled more by your head than your heart. With your inquisitive mind and insatiable curiosity, you're probably a great problem solver. And you always gather all of the facts before coming to a timely, informed decision. Easily intrigued, you're constantly finding new ways to challenge your mind, whether it's by reading the newspaper, playing a trivia game, or composing a piece of music. Brown is an impartial, neutral color, which means you tend to see the difference between fact and opinion easily and are open to many points of view. Trustworthy and steady, you really are a brown at heart.

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Focusing on Yourself
For you, there is no better sanctuary from life's demands than some space for yourself alone. That's not to say you're antisocial. It's just that you like to take time to know yourself, to reflect on all your experiences rather than sweeping them under the rug to deal with another day. For you, long walks, a cozy afternoon on the sofa, or a luxurious soak in the tub might give you all the solitude you need to really look inward, so you can better look outward toward work, family, and friends. More than others, you need to take those moments to slow down, think, and dream.

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2003-09-27T18:59:00.000-04:00

i went to the university fair with my mom today.. it wasnt that bad really.. after the fair, we stayed in the Union Subway Station and ate our lunch.. we talked about things and stuff and later saw this group of people and a bride.. i find the woman really pretty.. and i even thought myself being the bride!! isnt that weird?! we then went to Yorkdale to find winter boots.. my mom was supposed to buy a drink from Tim Hortons but there are so many people in line so we went to get ice cream!!yum-yum!! we went to all sorts of shoe stores before settling to take a look at The Bay.. my mom and i splurge ourselves with the view of perfumes and other cosmetics from big names.. before going home, we have bought ourselves winter boots and tried out some perfumes..

then the unthinkable happened, just as we were to ride a second bus, my mom realizes that she left one of the bags in the bus stop.. and my mom, with her new rubber shoes, ran after it.. and i was left standing there and wishing that the bag was still there because my winter boots were the ones in there and some of the brochures we collected from the fair.. luckily, my mom found it.. we were really lucky because my mom said that there is a lady there which is a Filipina and said that no one even dared to take a look at it!!

i just hope Nas will be on YM today.. i miss talking to him! though i called him this morning because he said he wanted to talk to me, thats just enough.. i really really really miss my boyfriend.. got to go now, before i get all mushy again.. take care everyone!!

im just wondering, do you guys think that there are other people reading my blog besides those people that i know? i mean, i just thought that my blog is just a waste of time! or maybe i should change the layout huh?! ive been thinking about that for a long time now but im busy with school so i really dont have time for it right now..

2003-09-26T20:32:00.000-04:00

nothing much happened at school today.. i worked on my assignment in my commtech class.. and then at english, my teacher was sick so she couldnt make it til monday i guess.. and i love the substitute teacher!! he makes it wasy for you to understand not like my real teacher where were all guessing on what she really wants to say.. my classmates even asked him if he could stay and be our english teacher for the whole semester.. but thats just impossible..

after lunch, at my physed class, we 'played' this game with jogging around the gym and there are pieces of paper taped on the wall with letters and numbers on it ang we have to jog around the gym til we touched the letters and numbers and form our first and last names, birthdates and phone numbers.. then we went out and and play stuff in the field.. math class.. more statistics!! isnt that fun! have a lot to do this weekend.. i just wish i can get them all done this monday or im dead..

my mom keeps pissing me off.. i wish i didnt invite her to go with me for the university fair tomorrow.. she asks me what course i'll take then later reacts on it and saying that i should choose this or that.. damn!! why is she asking anyway?! i know they'll paying money for it.. but then, why ask what course i want to take then later tells you that you wont get a good future with it!! WTF! im so pissed!!!

anyway, have a great weekend everyone!! :)

2003-09-24T19:14:00.000-04:00

hey guys!! sorry if i cant keep up with my blog lately.. im just so busy these days.. anyways, ill just blog what happened these past few days..

saturday
my mom together with my father and brother went to MDG to buy a new desktop computer.. its really nice.. the money they used was the money my parents gave me for my 18th birthday.. but its fine with me since i also want to get a new computer.. and were all fighting who gets to use the computer first and all that..

sunday
we were out of the apartment since we really dont get to spend family time outside.. we went to Best Buy because my mom has to get her payslip for the last days she spent at that place.. we then went to Yorkdale to find winter boots and other stuff.. my brother and i were playing with the perfume testers.. spraying the perfume and smelling it like crazy! i was planning to buy one but i dont have the money.. and i know for sure that there are no Bench stores here!! hehe!! we stopped by at the grocery store and went home full and tired carrying those bags!!

monday
it was photo day so i had my picture taken.. and we werent able to have physed class because they used the gym for the photo session.. i attended the orientation of University of Guelph Humber at the library in my fourth period.. then when we still have about 30 mins left before classes will end, there was the sound of the fire alarm.. i though it was a fire drill or something because i watched some of those in shows that were shown in Philippines.. the worst of that is, it was cold outside and the rain gets heavier and heavier.. and then came 2 or 3 fire trucks in our school.. everyone thought that someone press the alarm.. but some thought it was real.. the weird thing is that we didnt see anything suspicious that we may have saw smoke or something.. then, 5 mins before the bell, we went to our classes and waited for the bell to ring..

tuesday
i love commtech!! im almost done with my cartoons when the bell rang.. dang! english is always boring.. its nice when there is an orientation about george brown college so i attended.. then lunchtime!! i got to meet some pinoys and glad to meet one guy there who is also from cavite and he used to live in imus while i was living with my family in dasmariñas.. then physed, my teacher was absent and she sent an 'italian' lady.. (i just guess the lady is italian because she speaks like one!) the class was pretty boring.. and ended up playing basketball!! damn it was crazy!! people are running everywhere and everyone wants to hold and shoot the ball!! then my last class, math! i went through the statistics stuff again.. but im fine with it because i learned it while im in my highschool days!! im just thankful that my teachers in highschool taught us those stuff!! :D

wednesday
okei.. today was ttc photo day when u can have student discounts when accessing ttc buses or use the subway system.. im done with my cartoons in commtech and my teacher complimented my work! maybe il get it posted here sometime.. if i managed to get one.. have it scanned or emailed to me maybe.. english as always is boring!! my teacher wants us to work with a powerpoint presentation about beauty on how we reflect and our own definition of beauty.. i didnt get to attend my physed class because of the orientation of University of Toronto.. in my math class, another topic about stock exchange?! whew! and i'll be mostly alone tomorrow with my second and fourth period class because grade 12 students are attending to the university fair and i dont want to go with them since i have no one to talk to when im with them.. and though i really dont want to, i asked my mom to go with me this saturday.. talk about mother and daughter bonding.. it will never work im telling you!! its impossible in my side..

got to go now, have to do the dishes.. im pissed with my brother not bothering to do the dishes since he know i'll be eating later on.. grr!! take care people!

2003-09-19T22:09:00.000-04:00

theres this hurricane today.. my brothers thought that there will be no classes so they hurried up to get in class in time.. my brother and i walked through the raging winds and heavy rain.. i got to our classroom, soaking wet.. pants dripping with excess water and my hair and clothes are pretty much messed up.. and to think i didnt bother to fix myself when i know theres this cute guy in my comtech class! haha!! kidding!! not everybody in my comtech class were there.. so we get to do things we want in the computer.. english class - got some books from the library and started working on with our independent study.. i hate those!! i dont know what ive done to deserve doing these things all over again!! *twisted* its irritating!! physed - since we have a small group in today's class.. our teacher and the teacher in the boys physed class let us decide on one sport we'll be doing, either play basketball or floor hockey.. so i ended up choosing floor hockey (ive only watched a couple of games on how to play..) rather than playing basketball with most of the guys in the other class.. it was fun!! though i wasnt able to score some points.. (coz its not easy when the guys guard the nets.. - sorry, i really dont know the terms..) math - my teacher was absent so a substitution teacher came in class instead.. it was pretty boring.. he should have let us go to the library to research or something.. i want to read this book about love.. haha!!

im having problems on how to get volunteer work.. since it might be an advantage enrolling in universities.. a representative of York University was in school the other day and met us in the library discussing things about the programs, admissions and her experiences in the university.. i just hope im prepared to enter to one..

Thought of the day: Do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power of transformation. If you believe in your heart that you have found someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith that you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the partner not chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then you may be ready to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. (from quoteylicious.net)

2003-09-16T02:18:00.000-04:00

hi there!! so, got our laptop back.. im feeling lazy to finish this synthesis about the poem analysis we've done for the weekend.. and its 2:00am! i hope im not going to feel sleepy tomorrow in my class.. its OUR anniversary today!! yipee!! one part of me is happy because this is the longest relationship ive ever been to.. (i love him so much!!) and the other part of me is sad because im not with him.. my day in school was really weird since i was like daydreaming all day.. its so hard being far from the one you love.. and spending your anniversary apart, really sucks.. but i have to live with it.. i wont be able to visit Philippines for umm.. 3-5 years i guess.. dang! i miss him so much!!

im thinking sharing with you guys the day Nas and I met, but i guess its too personal and i cant share that with you.. hehe!! well, to make the story short, we became friends since we were blockmates in college.. and honestly, i was crushing the guy beside him and not him.. i also have a boyfriend then.. but, its really weird that we ended up together!! haha!!

sorry for being so sentimental.. i apologize if there are errors in my blog since i really cant think straight now.. im sleepy!!! *yawn* take care everyone!!

message to nas: hon, thank you everything!! thanks for being there for me.. thank you for your patience with me because it really means a lot.. i hope i can be with you.. i miss you so much!! i love you hon!! mwahh!!

Thought for the day: When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part, because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness; it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day, it's not laying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No, that is just being in love, which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love, itself, is what is left over when being in love has burned away. Doesn't sound very exciting does it? But, it is.

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2003-09-05T16:21:00.000-04:00

ei people!! sorry if i wasnt able to blog for the last what?! its monday already!! i wasnt able to edit my entry today because im at school! *ring bell* our laptop is down and the last time that i was suppose to edit this entry. (that was friday) blogger has problems with some of the accounts (including mine..)

so, very busy for the last few days.. i was exhausted everytime i go home from school because of my physed class.. learned how to play football and stuff.. got to go for now, class is here.. my next blog might be on wednesday or thursday!! take care everyone!!

ciao.

Thought for the day: There is nothing wrong in expressing our feelings to someone we love, but "we must always be sensitive to the signals that tell us when to rationalize and be sensible." There comes a time in our lives when we would fall for someone who wouldn't be as interested as we are because his attention is focused on someone else.

2003-09-02T19:44:00.000-04:00

first day of classes.. ummm.. it sucks!! i wore these high heeled black boots at school thinking that black shoes are a requirement but it wasnt.. so, i got irritated by the sound of the high heeled shoes i was wearing while im walking around the hallways looking for my rooms.. i later got my timetable.. first period was ok.. got too fascinated with the course outlines about computers and stuff.. i missed my second period, which is english, because i wasted my time trying to find my room.. and when i found my room, i was 20-25 minutes late!! how cool is that?! third period was gym class.. the gurls there were nice.. they showed me the where the changing rooms are and some other stuff.. fourth period was math.. damn! i get to do statistics again?! that SUCKS!! BIG TIME!! i tired doing those gathering, applying those sort of stuff.. i was kinda snob this morning.. but i wish i can adjust to this in time.. cant speak english that much..

its my mom's birthday today.. and guess what?! its almost 20:00 here and i havent greeted my mom!! i just wish i can get to watch the oc later.. thats pretty much it! got to go!! take care everyone!! ciao!

Thought of the day: There are many times when we love but don't get loved in return. There are times when the sign ahead says stop but we still stubbornly head on. We would say our love is unconditional, but if it really is, then we should never feel bad. But why do we get frustrated when love turns sour? Because we still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we care about.

2003-09-01T00:01:00.000-04:00

9:00 i wasnt able to blog for sunday.. well, yesterday was pretty tiring.. had my hair done coz im somewhat disturbed by my long hair so my brothers and i together with my dear father went to a salon to get a haircut.. it was nice.. people there are friendly and i know i'll be back there to get my hair done.. we later went to the mall.. first stop, HMV!! my brother and i get to be nice to my father so he would pay for the cds we picked.. bad isnt it?! well, i was happy when i saw a single of bon jovi and one of shania's singles.. i thought of giving them to my beau, but on the second thought, i might as well keep it for my own.. haha!! i was also trying to get new school shoes, but i wasnt able to find one because im not comfortable with the styles they have and im quite tired walking.. after that, we went to buy some groceries and find junkfoods in tindahang pilipino.. and thats about it.. try to blab about the rest of my day later, if i have any.. ;)

Thought of the day: You can learn the most about someone not during those moments of deep and passionate tidbits of life, but during those moments of simplicity. The most deepest of feelings are born during those moments. You can be lying in bed with that person and all of a sudden you realize, "Damn im in love!"

2003-08-30T11:32:00.000-04:00

geez, i guess its only lei who's reading my blog.. hahaha!! thanks for your time reading my 'senseless' blog.. hahaha!! nothing much happened today really.. my brothers keep watching the MTV VMAs for the nth time.. (five times i guess?!) i enjoyed doing the laundry (we handwashed them for 'some' reasons..), iron some of the clothes, and sew some stuff.. i find it weird because im usually feeling lazy.. ;) that's all for now.. i have to text my bf a good morning and me having a good night rest.. take care people.. ciao!

Thought of the day: Being in love can be the most wonderful thing we could experience but if the feeling begins to consume our whole beings, then we have to stop and let our minds and not our hearts dictate our actions. Only when we learn to accept our fate and understand the meaning of our failures we can truly go on with life without having to look back and cry over the things that could have been but will never be...

2003-08-29T09:48:00.000-04:00

i signed up for commentation by enetation.. i was annoyed with whats happening with the reblogger so i switched to enetation.. so, nothing interesting happened really.. ummm, oh! this morning when my beau and i were having this "text conversation", he told me that he was buying a new phone! well, i was sad though because it was my nokia 3210 that he just bought from me so it would be like a "remembrance" or something.. but he said that "my phone" will be passed to his younger sister (isnt that sweet? i know they are not "that" close really..) he is one independent guy and i really envy him.. and he sure knows how to use his monthly allowance his parents gave him.. so thats why he never gets to splurge for himself since he told me that he rarely goes out, hang around and watch movies in the mall since i was gone.. but then, i was surprised when he told me that he was also saving for "our future"! he said that he will open an account for us in three years time.. God! i never thought he would be this.. i dunno.. insane, maybe?! ;) he later informed me that it was his mother's idea! by the way, i didnt get to meet her mother and i was only introduced through "a picture of mine" last sunday, before he head back to manila after a "long vacation" from school.. i really dont know what to say as of that moment.. i was pretty speechless i should say..

i watched the vmas again for the third time.. and i just keep watching the opening act, eminems special appearance with this puppet, and xtina's and beyonce's rocking performance!! so, thats pretty much it! have nothing to blab! ciao!

Quote of the day: When we love someone, we NEVER easily GIVE UP on that person. Even if we get hurt badly we always try to find a way to ease the pain and learn to understand and forgive. Loving too much doesn't hurt. It is when we expect this love to be reciprocated that we begin to seek approval and acceptance of the things we have done and when we are taken for granted and rejected, we curse the very same love that we once freely and happily offered.

2003-08-28T16:08:00.000-04:00

watched the MTV VMAs today.. damn! what an outrageous opening number!! having britney (the lip sync princess), xtina (my idol!), and madonna on stage together? the weird thing is, madonna kissed britney and xtina.. wicked!!! ;p missy elliot was there too!! :)

justin timberlake was one of the big winners today and also was beyonce!! 50 cent won a number of catergories too (and of course, my fave, eminem!!) linkin park got the best rock video (i guess).. but there were some awkward moments also, but never mind that.. so, other things that happened today besides watching the VMAs, ummm.. i wasnt able to blog the yesterday coz i really feel lazy and also because i have nothing to blog anyway.. ;p other than that, its all about my beau.. i love him so much!! (hi hon!! i love you!! mwahh!!) okei, thats all for now! have a great night everyone!! take care! ciao!

Quote of the day: With love, we learn how to care and sacrifice. We learn to share and reach out. We learn to be unselfish and give more than we can. And when everything doesn't end well, we learn how it fells fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on. This is where we learn that "Life doesn't end where our heartaches begin".

2003-08-26T12:57:00.000-04:00

13.00 damn! i hate our laptop.. i want to throw that thing out!! i was texting with my beau and our laptop keeps getting hanged every now and then!! i hate it!! my beau and i were getting to some confidential matters and there it was! this laptop needs a repair! i wish my parents have plans buying a desktop computer or something.. im getting sick and tired of this laptop! i miss talking to my beau!! we were texting each other about crazy things and this laptop is making our lives hell or should i say the texting part is "bitin"? ;) i just wish he's still up!!

21.00 i hate my mom!! i hate when she's home early from work.. i cant watch the o.c. when shes around.. she always has the remote control when shes home!! grrrrrr!!! hate her!! hate her!! hate her!! i hope she'll not be home this early next monday so i can watch the reply of the o.c.. I AM SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW!!! have i told you guys that i hate my mom?! try to blog later.. ciao!

Quote of the day: Remember that you cannot be a redeemer all your life. The best way to weigh a relationship is out in the test of fire. You cannot be a sooner of your mistake forever. Remember, we all fail and make wrong decisions but our blunders are meant not to bury us deep in misery but to teach us the valued lessons of life. Loving is always a learning process.

2003-08-25T21:36:00.000-04:00

so i get to talk with my beau again today.. i miss hearing his voice.. i was just about to say good night but then i didnt hang up the phone for like another 10 minutes.. and its really hard to say goodbye to him on the phone when you really dont want to hang up.. but i really have to because im pretty guessing that my parents will reprimand me again for having long distance calls..

the start of classes is drawing near and i really dont know what to think.. i think i'll curse that day for the rest of my life because i dont really like living here.. i didnt get to meet people since my brother and i always stay in the house and never had the chance to roam around, meet other Filipinos in our age bracket and talk about things.. for 3 months that ive lived here, the first day of class might be a real shocker to me! dealing and hearing people who speak english very fast and comfortable and all that, while i, the shy and quiet type dumb gal is sitting in a corner doing nothing and making herself busy in any way she can.. guess, in time, i have to live with it and i hope i can deal with people well because im not a people person!!

i sort of thought being "kikay" these days.. i never really cared how i look when i was in the Philippines, but now, i guess i have to learn about new things.. I WAS NEVER CLOSE TO MY MOTHER.. and i guess its a good thing.. i dont like my mom at all.. its not that i hate her, i guess its the way i brought up with them and never had the chance to be close with her.. i dont know much about dealing with with make-up and other "girly stuff" because my mom didnt like that in the first place.. she said that im getting flirty or something like that..

im a late bloomer! *shy smile* ciao!

Quote of the day: Loving someone is never a sin. It is what people do out of love that sometimes makes it all wrong. The selfish desire to want that person is what makes it a sin. Don't think only of your feelings for real love doesn't have a place for selfish people. When there is love, there is always sacrifice.

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2003-08-23T17:08:00.000-04:00

so today was a happy day for me!! i called my beau for like 3 times.. at first i just drop by to say good night but then, i cant hang up the phone when talking to him.. the whole discussion of our conversations were mostly about us.. i damn miss my man!! we're having discussions about us while we're still that "inseparable couple".. our first's.. fight, meeting my parents and all that.. i feel like crying while reminiscing those times.. i miss him very much! we've talked about "the future" and other mushy stuff.. and he's still up at 4am! we still cant believe that we'll be celebrating our one year anniversary next month! and spending it miles apart from each other.. dang! i never imagined getting attached for this long.. it's really amazing!! the feeling is great!! i cant wait spending my life with my guy!

a friend of mine, confessed 'something' the other day.. and i cant help but wonder why guys confessed their "feelings" when im already far away from them? they keep saying that they only realize they 'still' have the feelings when i was gone and they are just keeping it inside making them miserable and being hurt even more.. but one thing they say is that my boyfriend is "one lucky guy!" and he sure is!!

i have to share this with you..

To help you realize what love is, and what it is not:
know the difference between "somebody you Love" and "somebody you Like"

*In front of the person you like, your heart beats faster
*But in front of the person you love, you get happy.

*In front of the person you love, winter seems like spring.
*But in front of the person you like, winter is just beautiful winter.

*If you look into the eyes of the one you like, you blush.
*But if you look into the eyes of the one you love, you smile.

*In front of the person you like, you can't say everything on your mind.
*But in front of the person you love, you can.

*In front of the person you like, you tend to get shy.
*But in front of the person you love, you can show your own self.

*You can't look straight into the eyes of the one you like.
*But you can always smile into the eyes of the one you love.

*When the one you like is crying, you end up comforting.
*When the one you love is crying, you cry with them.

*The feeling of like starts from the ear.
*But the feeling of love starts from the eye.

*So if you stop liking a person you used to like, all you need to do is cover your ears.
*But if you try to close your eyes, love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever.

that's it for now! ciao!

2003-08-22T15:32:00.000-04:00

so, what happened today? we were asked to buy things and stuff.. and i felt i was in my country again when i was able to buy junkfoods at this store for Filipinos!! isnt that great?! i may sound a little childish (at age 18) but thats the way it is! i got excited seeing the things i used to eat and munch while doing my homework or watching tv and having a snack! sad to say though, theres no tortillos!! waaahh!! the peole there were kind and friendly.. asking how are we doing and stuff.. and told us that we should come there often.. i bet i will!! people there even speak like they are in our country.. just like that! i never thought that some of my fellow pinoys dont speak our language anymore as if its like they cursed the country where they came from.. sad to say but true..

i took this online quiz about finding nemo!! isnt that movie the greatest?! i absolutely love and enjoyed watching this film! and the fact that there were some pinoys who contributed their talent to this movie!! that is amazing! really!! the mayon volcano, working with the character about dory, the bahay kubo.. want to see the whole story? here it is.. Finding the Pinoys behind Nemo

my big shout outz to lei! for making my link button! its really cute!! thanks a bunch! mwahh!!

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2003-08-18T20:46:00.000-04:00

so! my beau and i are okei now.. i was hesitant at first because i was tired of being the first one to reach out for him so i decided that i'll see what will happen if i'll 'keep' my ego for awhile.. since i dont really have guts to raise my pride.. and good thing, he is not that insensitive as i thought he would be! he was the first one who called.. and after we talked, i was concerned of how i reacted after that phone call.. i thought i should keep it from him but i thought that i should let him know so i texted him and told him what im really feeling.. he told me that it kinda hurts him and because i told him on the phone that i have a crush.. (which is so childish!! and its very rare since i was attached to him) but i explained to him other things and we talked what might have been the problem, which is the distance.. since we were really inseparable when i was in my country.. i really love this guy.. and i really miss him a lot!! its like all the things we went through and how it all started keeps making flashbacks..

i saw this video of bon jovi, "all about loving you".. reminds me of my beau.. from what i saw in the video, the proposal.. *blushes* i thought giving him a cd single of that song.. since i already compiled him a lot of cds before i migrated here.. problem is, i cant find an affordable cd single of this track!! guess i just have to wait and see what will happen..

2003-08-16T10:26:00.000-04:00

so i didnt receive any call from my boyfriend.. now what?! after all the excitement of hearing his voice again, me waking up early so he can call me on time, and what happened? all he did was making these miss calls that made my parents irritated.. i was calm at first thinking that he's making fun of me again.. but then later on i realized that he isnt funny anymore.. i still sending texts to him making him realize that im getting irritated.. but still, nothing happened!! why do guys can be so insensitive sometimes?

i was browsing the net this afternoon, when i came across to this fanlisting of benjamin mckenzie! isnt this guy hot or what?! thats why i am hoooked watching the o.c. these days.. so who is this benjamin mckenzie guy you say? here's a pic!! I DEFINITELY ADORE THIS GUY!!! did i say he's hot?

* i joined a number of webrings today.. i just dont know if even one of my applications will get accepted.. *blushes*

avoidant

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2003-08-15T21:16:00.000-04:00

its been awhile since i last posted.. well, i do know many people have heard the news about the "blackout" which is NOT a terrorist attack by any chance.. all i know is that we cant eat "real food", sleep tight, watch tv all day, surf the net because of the power failure..

last night, my brother and i went downstairs to get some fresh air and chill out.. watch the stars or something when we saw this like a "star" that is flying (?) in the sky, but there is something weird about it, it changes direction and then it will disappear in a while then later will show up again and will go the other side.. its totally weird.. my brother and i were joking about it saying that it was a ufo!! haha!! well, this morning, since we dont have some rice and variand to eat, we were somehow satisfied with bread and some cookies.. good thing my brother and i bought some when we were asked to buy groceries..

by late afternoon, we have the power supply!! i was glued to the tv for like an hour watching and wondering what the hell happened, why there was a power failure or something.. and then my bf called.. haha!! i was like disappointed at him at first (for some unknown reasons) but the time i heard his voice, all of my worries are gone.. i really dont know how he does those sort of things.. or maybe im too kind.. hehe :wink: and he'll call me again tomorrow!!! why, you ask? because its our 11 month anniversary!!! isnt that wicked?! hehe.. guess that's it for now.. i have to take a long bath.. ciao.

SUICIDAL BITCH

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in your life. Why, you ask? Cause that frown
don't look good on you, hun!

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You represent... hope.
You're quite a daydreamer and can be a hopeless
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2003-08-12T20:30:00.000-04:00

mikey's out!! so sad.. my little brother even voted through phone like 5 times.. guess it wasnt meant for him really.. anyway, i was browsing today.. found lots of things and came across to this.. it made me think how bad i am and have neglected God.. i feel so bad about myself.. i cant explain really how bad i feel.. but i am thankful that eventhough i am like this, God is still here for me... to guide, support and love me.. though there are times that i keep asking Him why my life seems to be so awful and all, i know that God is really good and will not let me fall just like that..

2003-08-11T11:28:00.000-04:00

guess what made my day today?.. i was watching canadian idol and then when it was mikey bustos' turn, everbody loves him!! well, MOST girls do.. well im proud because he's filipino and what really made my day is when he was interviewed by ben, the camera tilted at one section of the place where there is this placard saying, "pogi ka, mikey" (youre handsome, mikey!) really nice isnt it?! maybe some people doesnt know what that meant but when i saw that, i thought that there are really many filipinos in canada.. and thats whats making me proud of my country!!! got to go.. i have to do something.. TTFN!!

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pure

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cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
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You're An Intellectual!
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People always come to you when they need
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your mind. After all, knowledge is power!

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2003-08-11T00:20:00.000-04:00

im done!! at last!! i understood all of these by myself... really good huh?! maybe i really should take web design, dont you think?! why am i doing these english speaking stuff? im just getting used to it! i dont want to walk in my class in september and all these people will look at me and i couldnt say anything. i cant let that happen, right?! anyway, i went to a picnic today.. at first i really thought it sucks since its at park in front of our apartment.. but then i thought my mom sounded weird asking me stuff about my boyfriend.. i mean, isnt that strange?! oh well! i guess she noticed that i am getting bitter feelings about them (mom and dad) again.. and my brother and i didnt get to buy winter clothes because we're feeling lazy.. so we were asked to clean the house.. well, thats just how my day went.. oh, before i forgot, i joined a new yahoo group today.. my fourth year class in highschool back at the philippines..

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You represent... loneliness.
Always alone and always sad about it... unlike
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Legolas

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Tomboy

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You are Trinity, from "The Matrix."
Strong, beautiful- you epitomize the ultimate
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